Friday, February 6, 2009: I AM WHO I AM:)
It is true when people say that life has its ups and downs as well as unexpected twists and turns. Sometimes things take a turn for the worse, making it really difficult to just wake up and start anew. But no matter how easy or hard, thick or thin we just have to set our mind positively and learn to struggle through these obstacles.
I was young and immature. I didn’t know what was good or bad. When I was around 10 years old, I dreamt of becoming a cardiologist. Why a cardiologist?. It was because my beloved grandfather died of heart attack. He was everything to me.
As time past by I discovered my interest and passion was for fashion-design. But things just didn’t work the way I wanted. As for everyone was against it. I became part of the Convent community in year 2004. I was in secondary one and didn’t take my studies seriously. I always obtained poor results. During secondary three, I had to sit for my Penilaian Menengah Rendah examination (PMR). I did not focus on my studies as I fooled around with my friends. My parents urged me to put more efforts and continue studying as the exam was around the corner. I am thankful that my parents did not lose hope in me. I started to buck up in my studies during the last 2 months but it was too late. The outcome of my negligence my results were not to my expectation.
I could not face my friends who had done better than me. I cried and cried. My father told me this, “Darling no point crying over spilled milk, you should have taught about this long ago. Anyway, its not the end of the world. SPM is the deciding exam for your future career”. The greatest mistake a person can do is doing nothing.
It was really a lesson to be learnt. My father than told me that winning is not everything but making the effort to win is. Even though my parents were crestfallen, they consoled me and made me realise that our greatest glory is not in falling but in rising every time we fall. After getting my results, I knew that it would change me. I wasn’t sure enough if I would be placed in the science stream. I prayed hard so that I could go into the science stream. But GOD decides the BEST. I was confused and my confident level was rock bottom .But as they say, the best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.
The year 2007 began and I got a placement in the arts stream. I was upset and just stared at the clock on the class wall, waiting for recess. While waiting, I noticed a quote pasted on the wall. “Never accept the negative until you have thoroughly explored the positive”. That quote has inspired me not to give up, but to accept it as a challenge.
During recess all my friends asked me to appeal to our principal. I was confused as most people have this perception that being in science stream means, being intelligent students and high achievers. I could not make any decision. At that point of time, the class teacher came in. She introduced herself and told us that accounts and business studies is one of the core subject nowadays. The demand is high, so don’t feel disappointed. I made my decision to stay where I am today and am happy with it.
As I grew to understand life more and more, I learnt to love it more and more. I know the importance of studies, friends is just not everything. Life is ten percent how we make it and ninety percent how we take it. So, I set my mind and told myself that I should take my life seriously from now on. Even though, there were lots of competitions and barriers, it did not stop me from trying. It has made me strive harder. The greatest discovery of our generation is that human beings can alter their lives by altering their state of mind.
I like the dreams of the future than the histories of the past. I don’t want to repeat the mistakes that I have done. I only managed to obtained 5 A’s for my mid-term exam. I know I could have done better. If I can imagine I can achieve it, If I can dream I can become it. I have built my confidence level and know that I am going to make a great accountant. I have even improved my mathematical skills. The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible. It is definitely possible for me to become a professional and successful accountant.
Far away in the horizon are my highest aspiration. I may not reach it but I can look up and see its beauty, believe in it and try to follow where it leads. Life will never be easy. Not for me, not for anyone. I do however have an advantage by knowing this already. I am ready to take on the world. My dreams continue even if there will be lots of obstacles in life. As they say, to accomplish great things, one must not only act but also dream not only plan but also believe!!!!!!!!
Last but not least my motto in life is “I am who I am and never let anyone say that you cannot do anything”
